HOW WE FIND LOVE

(here in this body we too often abandon)

Shortly after my first book REVEAL was published, I was asked to speak about the Divine Feminine at a safe house for women and children healing from domestic violence.

While deep into what I wanted to share that day, a couple of the toddlers were just not having it. Sitting still and listening to me talk about Mary Magdalene, Green Tara, and the Hindu Goddess Kali, was a bridge too far for these tiny angels.

So, I made a hard pivot mid-talk, and went straight to my favorite part; taking questions. And thank all things holy I did.

The questions blew my mind, and helped me share what held more meaning for them.

But there was one woman at the very end, too shy to ask her question in the larger group, who came up to me once the others were leaving.

I could see how hard it was for her to ask what she needed to ask. I could see great wells of tears begin to pool in her eyes.

The last aspect I was sharing about the Divine Feminine before shifting to questions was a commonality that so many of the stories of the female saints, mystics, and divine beings shared.

And it’s this: no matter their lifetime, no matter their circumstance, each in their own way, found love within them. And this love they found within freed them from the expectations of a culture that oppressed them.

So this radiant mother, this survivor, steadied herself in a chair beside the podium, and motioned for me to sit in the chair beside her.

Then she asked, “But how can I find love inside me when I’ve never known love? I’ve known abuse. I’m a product of group homes. I’ve never had a home of my own. But I’m still alive. So many of my friends have died. But I’m still here. When things start going good for me, I don’t think I deserve it. And so it ends. But I want love. I do. I just can’t find it.”

I think I might have taken her hand. I can’t remember, but it felt like I did as she shared this. She kept avoiding looking right at at me, but once her eyes met mine, I said, “I don’t know what it will take for you to find love. But I see love inside you.”

The clarity I received because of her still lives with me, like a diamond set in my solar plexus.

Whatever I do in this lifetime, this right here is the why: I want to return this outward seeking gaze for love, back to where the source of love extends.

I don’t remember her name. But I continue to write for her, in the fierce hope I have carried with me ever since that she sees the love that sees out through her eyes.

If she was here now, sitting again before me, I would say this:

You don’t have to be loved to receive it.

You don’t have to do anything, prove anything.

You don’t have to be­come what someone else needs you to be.

You don’t have to perform, audition for someone’s love for you.

Love is what you inherit as you open your eyes.

Love is what waits for you when you can return to a place softer than fear or hatred.

Love is what is here for you from within you.

Love is not what you go out to search for.

Love is what waits for you to return to it.

Here in this body we too often abandon, too often overlook.

Here in this body that we’re never told is the holy of holies.

Love waits for us to realize that it sees out through our eyes.

Love waits for us to return to it. Finally.

After all our searching ends. Love is here within.

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THE MARY MAGDALENE REVEALED RETREAT

THE OMEGA INSTITUTE
Rhinebeck, New York | August 21 - 23, 2026

The teachings in The Gospel of Mary are powerfully made for these times. We’ll reveal together the secret teachings Christ gave to Mary, and why they are so profound for us personally now. We’ll reveal the history of the earliest form of Christianity, contextualizing The Gospel of Mary within the 1st century, and we’ll draw from the wisdom of other sacred texts like The Gospel of Philip and The Gospel of Thomas.

And all throughout the weekend, we’ll be practicing the soul-voice meditation so that we’ll not just acquire academic knowledge about Mary Magdalene, but also we’ll begin to integrate her teachings personally, from a direct experience with the form of love Mary knew by heart.

Each section of the retreat will include both a meditation and ample time for questions. And the Saturday afternoon section will conclude with a book signing and a chance to speak one on one with Meggan.

This retreat is an opportunity to reassess and realign, to make certain the choices we make in our lives come from the soul. This is a chance to connect to the source of love that is right here within us, and that has always offered us a freedom that has always been ours.

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When Mary Rises: A 1-day Livestream Event

Restoring the First Apostle, Reclaiming Divine Feminine Wisdom

*Aug 22, 2026 2:30PM – 5:00PM ET

*(And you’ll also be sent a link to watch the recording in your own time)

Join best-selling author and feminist theologian Meggan Watterson for the Saturday afternoon session of her popular retreat Mary Magdalene Revealed, based on the best-selling book of the same name. Meggan shares profound teachings from the Gospel of Mary and the history behind the gospel’s erasure.

Together, we explore why these teachings were so threatening to the early church, and why they are still as potent and life-changing as they were in antiquity. Meggan explains the importance of understanding the myth told about Mary Magdalene for millennia—that she was a prostitute, which she was not, says Meggan, but the first apostle with a message meant for all of us.

Through lecture, lively discussion, and practice of the soul-voice meditation, we discover the secret powerful teachings Christ gave to Mary, why she was uniquely meant to receive them, and why they’re radical, even for today.

Join this soul-stirring gathering and experience the love Mary’s gospel reveals, the love that has the power to change everything, and ignite the feminine power the world needs now.